And I genuinely mean that.
Even though things ended sourly between two of us.
I dont regret a single things, i hope.
Even though I question every day, wheter what we had was real,
wheater what you felt for me was real.
The one thing I have never questioned in my life is how I felt towards you.
And it was real ; every words I’ve said to your face, every messages, every single word in those damn cards.
I’ve never lied. And I meant those things.
With every single fiber and bone in my body.
I really did.
No, I never expected anything back from you.
All of those big goods, those drawings, all of the things I’ve done.
Not in hopes of an exchange of something.
It was never hard for me either, It was like breathing, honestly.
And I did it because , I just wanted you to feel love,
I wanted you to see how much I adored you,
And I wanted you to be confident and knew that you were enough,
Despite everything.
Because you were enough.
You don’t owe me anything, you don’t owe me an apology for everything.
You dont owe me closure. You dont owe me an explanation.
You don’t even owe me love.
Because I don’t want disingenuous love.
Even if it was real, even if everything you felt for me was super genuine.
I don’t want forced love.
I don’t wanna have to beg to be loved right.
I don’t wanna have to beg for respect.
I don’t wanna have to beg for anything.
I just know what I felt for you was real,
It was unconditional.
When I say unconditional,
I genuinely mean that because, I am exhausted trying to hate you all of the time.
Because I don’t hate you at all.
And that’s on you.
You didn’t cherish me.
You are not my greatest love,
You’re not.
I’ll find someone better, someone will actually do right by me.
And I will love them the exact same way.
I guess this is just me closing a chapter.
I’m not gonna hate you anymore.
At least I’m gonna try my best not to.
You can live your nice, happy life, and you don’t owe me a single thing.
I just hope you never enter my life again.
thats the end.